Thoughts on life

 Hi all! It's been awhile. I thought I'd just share some thoughts on life, Just talk about how I'm doing. I really don't get to talk to people that often, unless I'm talking to God! I talk to my husband too but he's not really a talker. We play online games together we are playing Phantasy Star Online 2: New Genesis, which is good since we met on Phantasy Star Universe!

Anyway I just wanted to say that I've been smoking for almost 2 years now but it's not something that I really want to do. I thought I had quit for awhile but they say it takes 30 days to quit a habit... Right now I'm just trusting in God and leaving it in his hands. I feel that that's the only thing I can do. I really just want to praise God and share his love with people. I want to dance and sing for them; I thought that if I could sing and dance in the church then maybe I never would have started smoking in the first place...

I just do it because I feel that it helps me feel grounded in life. Life can be so stressful and sad. My 2 year old is a handful but I know she won't be like that forever so I do try to enjoy these little moments. I know that I can trust in God, smoking has allowed me to experience and go to uncharted waters with the Lord. My trust and faith is in him and I know I have to continue to look to him for guidance. Guidance for both what I want to do in life and the smoking.

I feel like this is all that I can do, that I need to continue and go all the way with God so that he can break the chains. My sacrifice may be small but he is enough! When he died for me!